SNEAK PEAKS from My Books

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QUESTIONS

EVERYDAY I OPEN MY EYES AND LOOK AROUND

I ALWAYS PROVE TO MYSELF ITS ALWAYS GOING TO JUST BE ME TILL THE END

NO LOVER, NO HOMIE, NOONE TO CALL A TRUE FRIEND

IVE HAD TIMES WHEN I WOULD GO TO SLEEP FEELING THE SAME

THERE'S NEVER ANYONE STRONG ENOUGH TO STAND BY ME THROUGH MY PAIN

IVE HAD DREAMS THAT SHOWED IT CLEAR AS DAY

TELL ME:

WHO CAN I RUN TO?

WHO CAN I RUN TO?

AS A BLACK MAN

IT IS HARD TO SHOW EMOTION SO IT STAYS BOTTLED INSIDE

CAUSE SOCIETY HAS RAISED US TO DIE FROM OUR PRIDE

BUT DAMMIT IM ANGRY AND FILLED WIRTH SO MUCH INSIDE

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?

IS IT ABOUT THE EXES I ONCE LOVED?

OR THE BABY MAMA WHO ONCED SAID SHE LOVED ME?

IS THE FIRST TRUE LOVE OF MY LIFE WHO I PUSHED AWAY?

OR IS IT THE SECOND TRUE LOVE THAT DIED AND I STILL MOURN FOR TILL THIS DAY?

HOW?

HOW?

THERE ARE SO MANY QUESTIONS

SO MUCH ANGER

SO MUCH DISTRESS

SO MUCH DEPRESSION

SO MUCH PAIN

SO MANY LIES

SO MANY EMPTY PROMISES

SO MANY FALSE PEOPLE

SO MANY THINGS THAT ARE DEALT WITH DAILY

CAN IT BE THE MOTHER WHO DISCIPLINED ME FOR REASONS I DIDN’T UNDERSTAND TILL NOW

OR IS IT THE FATHER WHO COWARD AWAY AND HAS TO BE REMINDED CONSTANTLY THAT HE HAS A FUCKING SON THAT NEEDED HIM AND STILL HAS A NEED FOR HIM NOW

IS IT THE FACT THAT I SEE MY PARENTS LIVES PLAYING INTO MINE

WHAT THE FUCK IS IT?

WHY CANT I JUST LIVE MY LIFE?

WHY ARE MY KIDS CRYING FOR THEIR DADDY EVERYDAY?

WHY IS IT THAT BABYMAMA TWO IS TRYING TO KEEP ME AWAY?

<JUST CAUSE YOU HAVE A NEW DICK SWINGING IN YOUR FACE OR OBEYING YOUR COMMANDS LIKE A DAMN DOG? WELL FUCK THAT SHIT, I WILL NEVER BOW DOWN TO NOONE BUT MY GOD, I WILL NEVER BOW DOWN TO MAKE SOMEONE FEEL HAPPY AND IN CONTROL, I WILL NEVER BOW DOWN AND I WILL NEVER PLAY A ROLE>

I AM A BLACK MAN WALKING, HEAD HELD HIGH AND CHEST RAISED OUT

I AM A MILITANT SOLDIER READY FOR BATTLE

FROM THE WARS IN THE STREETS TO SAVING MY FELLOW MARINES LIVES OVERSEAS

I AM ARMED WITH HOPE, FAITH, STRENGTH, HOPE AND DREAMS

I WILL CONQUER ALL MY ENEMIES BY ANY MEANS

WHO AM I?

WHO AM I?

WHO THE FUCK AM I?

THAT IS WHAT I KNOW AND YOU WANT TO FIND OUT

YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND IF I EVEN TOLD YOU

SO JUST SIT BACK AND LEARN AS THING UNFOLD BEFORE YOU

NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER THINK YOU HAVE AN UPPER HAND ON ME

I WAS BLESSED WITH SIGHT AND ANGEL LIKE FEELINGS

I CAN TELL YOUR HEARTS INTENT

I CAN SEE WHAT YOUR PURPOSE IS

SO TREAD EASY WHEN YOU ARE WALKING WITH ME

DON’T TAKE MY SMILE FOR A FOOL

OR MY LAUGH FOR A JOKE

DON’T TAKE MY UNDERSTANDING AS WEAKNESS

OR MY FORGIVENESS AS DESPERATE HOPE

I AM THE ONE WHO MAKES YOU WANT TO PUSH HARDER AND HARDER JUST TO OBTAIN MY MINDSET

I AM THE ONE WHO IS SETTING THE PACE FOR THE RACE THAT HASN’T EVEN STARTED YET

AS YOU READ THIS OVER AND OVER AGAIN TRYING TO UNDERSTAND

THERE IS ONE THING THAT I WILL LET YOU KNOW ABOUT ME:

I AM A TRUE, BOUNTIFUL, GOD FEARING, HARD WORKING, EVER SO LOVING, SENSITIVE, STRONG, COMPASSIONATE, LOVING, CARING, SENSIBLE, INTELLECTUAL, INSIGHTFUL, STREET SAVVY, HAIR NEVER NAPPY, PROUD OF MY HERITAGE AND CULTURE, PROUD OF ALL THAT IVE ACCOMPLISHED, NEVER TAKING SHIT FROM ANYBODY, COMPLETE WHOLE PACKAGE, PURPOSE DRIVEN MAN!!!!!

AUTHOR:

CEO ANTHONY B aka BROOKLYN bka NEW YORK

But you all know me as SOSINCERE

SUMMARY

Questions reflects all the things that we possibly ask ourselves, but others are afraid to ask theirselves. It is a sub-conscious effort to understand ones life, stature, mental capacity, emotional stability and spiritual well being. This will be featured in my second book: 

"UNCONDITIONAL / LETTERS TO MY FUTURE WIFE"

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